LOViNG YOu

Loving you isn’t difficult
Loving you isn’t impossible
Loving you is complicated!
Loving you is complicated!!
Loving you is challenging!!!
You are a gift that came with a curse
A blessing in the premises of a nemesis
A pearl in a seashell lounging on the floor of the deepest depths of the reefs
A bee that pollinates, gives honey and that stings
A room with bright lights tinged with glooms
This passion that I harbour… this passion comes with a plague
This passion is bitter-sweet
Changing phases; day, then night. Rain, then shine
This place of refuge, sometimes I’m held captive
This safe haven, sometimes Hell
The floors of this orchard is littered with too many flaws
Garden of beautiful roses littered with wild thorns
This passion comes with pain
This choice comes with consequences
This commitment comes with risks and tendencies
Why did I choose to love you? Why didn’t I choose something else?
Will you ever pick me? Will you ever leave me in the lurch if I don’t keep up?
Loving you is challenging!
Loving you is complicated!!
Loving you is complicated!!
Mood swinging like a pendulum, manic-depressions
“I can... I can’t!”
“I can… I can’t!!”
“I can… I can’t!!!”
This passion is an infliction that can harness fiery rage
Sometimes I want to leave this field, but the flux is too strong
Sometimes I want to stay, but the burden is too heavy
Guilt trips, this road to Glory is paved with molten lava
On this journey lies many mirages with warning signs “the destination is still far though it seems near”
Loving you feels good but never easy!
Loving you requires more than usual… patience and resilience!!
Loving you is complicated!!!
Loving you is complicated!!!!
You bring me fulfilment and sometimes you give me recurring frustrations
You make me promises and sometimes you offer me disappointments
You give me purpose and sometimes you take it away
You show me hope and sometimes you feed me despair
You reward me and sometimes you punish me
This commitment; for better for worse… is it everlasting?
You consume me; thousand thoughts firing, thousand litres of dopamine gushing, thousand emotions flaring
You consume me; first thing in the AM, all day daydreaming, last thing in the PM
Mood swinging like a pendulum, manic-depressions
“Give up… Try Again!”
Which is easier?
“Give up… Try Again!!”
Which is more difficult?
“Give up… Try Again!!!”
Sweet dreams, harsh realities
Every day I serenade! I serenade!! I serenade!!!
Hoping my best is more than enough, hoping that I am favoured
Hoping that someday the sigh of relief is loud enough to echo for such long time
Mood swinging like a pendulum, manic-depressions
“Stay… Leave!”
Which is easier?
“Stay… Leave!!”
Which is more difficult?
“Stay… Leave!!!”
Loving you is challenging!
This passion is making me a warrior within, a fighter at heart
What you love, what you have passion for, is a source of happiness and a source of pain
I love art, I love to succeed and I love to win
Loving you is complicated!
Loving you is challenging!!
… So help me God